changes

things changed

old people get older

too weak to come for reunion

old old people pass away

families stop visiting where old old people stayed

which means seeing less of my far far cousins

less red packets too

haha

but babies were born

babies grow up

running around the hall

making a lot of noise

sort of making the place merrier

but somehow i miss the days when i'm the one making the noise

great grandmother was still there

to receive red packet from her

grandpa were still strong

when he is still able to give us rm20 every time we sees him

and we'll say 免啦 免啦

but in the end we'll still accept it

haha

miss the familiar atmosphere when i was a kid

where everyone were still close

i felt everyone sort of drifted apart

less meetings maybe

or maybe i'm the one that is far apart

back in my hometown i always bump into my far far cousins

the ones where you know he or she is the child of your related uncle or something

but you did not even speak to them before

then i'll be pointing at that person and tell my friends that is my far far cousin

or say that is my 自己人

then my friends will go saying that i have a lot of 自己人hor

haha

because i have a big family and most of them are still in taiping

lets change topic

i was thinking about couples

when the guy is going some where to get something

the some where might be a dark alley or a dangerous place

the guy will ask the girl to stay some where safe and wait for him to come back

as a guy i will do this because what if there are bad guys coming out of no where

try to attack me then i can run or do whatever i like without worrying my partner will get hurt

or maybe being use as a hostage to threatened me or even do awful things to her while all i can do is stand there and do nothing because they got a knife at my throat

i don't want that to happen

i rather die alone without her getting hurt

but girls thinks differently

they want to follow the guy together

i don't mean that they are a burden or anything

but all i wanted was her staying safe

whadabout girls

do girls think like that

why har

there is one thing that still stays the same

which is my fyp

still in chapter one

damn