Friday, January 30, 2009

changes

things changed
old people get older
too weak to come for reunion
old old people pass away
families stop visiting where old old people stayed
which means seeing less of my far far cousins
less red packets too
haha
but babies were born
babies grow up
running around the hall
making a lot of noise
sort of making the place merrier
but somehow i miss the days when i'm the one making the noise
great grandmother was still there
to receive red packet from her
grandpa were still strong
when he is still able to give us rm20 every time we sees him
and we'll say 免啦 免啦
but in the end we'll still accept it
haha
miss the familiar atmosphere when i was a kid
where everyone were still close
i felt everyone sort of drifted apart
less meetings maybe
or maybe i'm the one that is far apart
back in my hometown i always bump into my far far cousins
the ones where you know he or she is the child of your related uncle or something
but you did not even speak to them before
then i'll be pointing at that person and tell my friends that is my far far cousin
or say that is my 自己人
then my friends will go saying that i have a lot of 自己人hor
haha
because i have a big family and most of them are still in taiping

lets change topic
i was thinking about couples
when the guy is going some where to get something
the some where might be a dark alley or a dangerous place
the guy will ask the girl to stay some where safe and wait for him to come back
as a guy i will do this because what if there are bad guys coming out of no where
try to attack me then i can run or do whatever i like without worrying my partner will get hurt
or maybe being use as a hostage to threatened me or even do awful things to her while all i can do is stand there and do nothing because they got a knife at my throat
i don't want that to happen
i rather die alone without her getting hurt
but girls thinks differently
they want to follow the guy together
i don't mean that they are a burden or anything
but all i wanted was her staying safe
whadabout girls
do girls think like that
why har

there is one thing that still stays the same
which is my fyp
still in chapter one
damn

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